#not too happy with this storyline for obvious reasons

[fromxxthexxashes]

Okay, okay, OKAY. Other long post from Hailey, but who’s surprised?

My thoughts on 7x07:

First of all, I just want to say that I HATE cheating storylines. Always have, always will. I hated when Hen did it, I hated it when Buck did it, and I hate that Eddie is doing it. Cheating is wrong, and that’s that. However, human beings make mistakes all the time, and this doesn’t mean that Eddie is evil or bad. It makes him human. While the show has, admittedly, not done great when it comes to taking certain serious subject matter seriously (see: Dr. W*lls), however, when they’ve done these cheating storylines in the past, it has always been framed as a wrong decision. I’m guessing that’s what’s gonna happen with Eddie.

I’ve also heard the term OOC thrown around, and while I think this is unlike Eddie, in terms of his morality, I don’t think it’s out of character. This whole storyline is Eddie self-destructing. We’ve seen him do it before. The first time is when he got into fighting. He wasn’t a bad guy or a guy with anger issues, he was a man in pain, who didn’t know what to do with all that hurt - so he self-imploded. The second time, was when he had a breakdown. This was a lot more visceral. He had all these feelings and trauma bottled up, and he wasn’t dealing with it, and then it exploded. Then he took a baseball bat to his room - an extension of the self, one might say. And he did it, in part because of all the years of repressed trauma, but also because of all that guilt.

This cheating storyline is Eddie self-destructing. He’s in an unfulfilling relationship that he only got into because he felt he had to be with someone otherwise he was a failure for being alone. He also hasn’t dealt with his grief and trauma of Shannon's passing, clearly. And Trauma has a wicked way of making us do bad things. Along with that, he still idealizes his relationship with Shannon, even though there is a lot more bad than good. I think he is unhappy with certain things in his life, and he’s going about things the way he is, likely because he probably still feels guilty about his mistakes and how his marriage ended. For him, it’s easier to implode than it is to search deeper down and find the issues he’s not dealing with.

It’s not intentional behavior. He holds himself up to such a high standard, that anything he does feels like not enough, like he’s a failure. Because of that, he has a low opinion of himself, and, subconsciously, he wants to punish himself. His idealization of his marriage with Shannon doesn’t help with that, because he probably thinks the problems in their marriage rest on his shoulders - despite the fact that both parties contributed.

While the cheating might be self-sabotage, him picking a woman that looks like his dead wife and mother of his child, is obviously about his constant urge to fulfill this mother and wife role in Chris and his lives. He has a hard time believing he can be a good father alone, so he’s always searching for someone to complete that nuclear family image.

I think he also wants to try and recreate those good moments he had with Shannon with Kim, this doppelgänger woman. He’s put on these rose-colored glasses when it comes to his marriage with Shannon. He’s not fulfilled with Marisol, and he’s desperately trying to find that fulfillment. He wants that fulfillment to come from someone who fits those mother/wife roles that he feels is obligated to pursue, and who fits that role better than Shannon, his wife and mother of his child? Unfortunately, that’s not gonna work. One, because Kim is not Shannon. Two, Shannon and his relationship was a whole mess. Three, the way he’s going about pursuing this is gonna end up even messier.

So while I HATE that they’re doing a cheating storyline, this does mean there will be positive things for us, the audience, and for Eddie’s character development.

Eddiesol is BONES. Say bye-bye transphobic and homophobic actress. You will not be missed!!

Eddie will likely end the season single. There is no way Eddie is going to stay with Kim, because that would be way too traumatic for Eddie and Chris, not to mention no self-respecting women is going to stay with a man that pursued her only because she looked like his wife.

Buck is going to meet Kim, and Buck will find out that Eddie cheated, and will hopefully yell at him for dumb choices. Buck is speaking from experience, so I’m guessing he’ll have a lot to say. I feel like this could mirror their argument over Ana in s5.

Kenny described this arc as a “beautiful disaster” so Eddie will undoubtedly come out of this having learned some valuable lessons.

Eddie is finally going to process Shannon’s death.

Eddie is finally going to admit that his relationship with Shannon was far from perfect.

Eddie will FINALLY realize that he cannot replace Shanon. This will stop his cycle of dating women with the purpose of doing just that.

Hopefully, this will lead to Eddie realizing that he’s only ever dated women out of some kind of obligation, which could hopefully lead into a sexuality storyline sometime in the future.

So, despite the fact that I hate cheating storylines, I have faith that this will result in some positive change for Eddie. Cheating is wrong, but it’s not character death. Hen grew past her infidelity, and so did Buck. Every thing is going to blow up in Eddie’s face, and it will undoubtedly result in some deep self-reflection, hopefully some therapy, and some character growth.

[themyscirah]

@ TK you still have time to let lizzie do an aquababy fyi : )))))

[marsprincess889]

Intuitive messages

Random and symbolic. This may or may not be for you, trust your intuition.

Disclaimer: I start to channel with images, feelings/vibes and random symbols, then I see storylines and then other messages come too. These might be ??? to you in the beginning but please, trust that if you truly think that you picked your group correctly, then there is, most likely, a message there for you, even if it's not obvious at first.

Note: I have a lot of love for all of these three groups and collectives, a lot😭 I think we'd get along really well irl if it's not weird to say. Sending all of you compassion and love. Wish all of you luck🤍

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Signs: lizard, iguana, Slavic, name Irina, "The Great"(2020-2023), candles, Eastern Orthodoxy, Orthodox Christmas(happy late Orthodox Christmas guys🤍), "Slavic bimbo" aesthetic, goose/geese, pine tree forest, mandarin orange, Barbara, a barber?, brown colored desserts, Claire/Clarisse/Clara, Tchsikovsky, berries, Alina, Shadow and Bone(the whole of Grishaverse but specifically the S&B part of it). Nakshatras of Shatabhisha, Ardra, Ashlesha, Dhanishta, Vishakha.

"Oh Irina..."

Hello Irina.

If you're not named Irina or something similar, it might be the name of a person relevant to you or this reading. Or maybe you just like the name/it means something to you.

I'm seeing darker colors of Winter. I got a distinct Slavic vibe for this group, but might be somewhere else.

Now I'm getting the word "malina", which means raspberry, and the name Alina.

I think I'm seeing Alina and being reminded of "Shadow and Bone" so that I can channel the message...

It does not have to be relevant to you.

Anyways, Alina is the protagonist of "Shadow and Bone"(book trilogy and a show), for those who don't know, and she's the Sun summoner(only one of her kind), representing light that is eventually going to fight the darkness. That theme of light and dark and their interplay is the perhaps the most obvious theme of that work.

Spoiler alert😭 sorry.

Alina repressed her powers in the beginning, while being tested, so that she would not be discovered, fearing that if she did in fact have powers, she would be taken away from her best friend from the orphanage, not wanting to be apart from him. They were children then.

For context, she could have had any power but the power of the Sun Summoner had been prophesized and highly desired, not only by grishas(basically, people with powers in that universe) but for also saving the kingdom of Ravka(Slavic coded) from the fold(it's a wall/passage of void and darkness). So, she gave up a life in the palace, that grishas get, to stay in the orphanage with her best friend, unknowingly depriving the nation of the Sun Summoner for years as a result😭.

There might be a theme of willing or concious concealment, most likely of yourself.

There are many variations of this: some of you are doing it for noble reasons, some of you do it for survival, some of you do it just... because, reasons.

A version of this is that you have hidden your views, opinions, preferences, thoughts, feelings and/or small actions, because you think people around you will harm you? This sounds intense, I'm sorry if this is true. Maybe not physically harm you, but you guys just have a concious need or desire for extreme privacy and secrecy. It looks to me like you're doing this to reach a specific goal.

For some of you, most likely a minority, I'm getting that this is a pregnancy, and that it's not from a committed relationship or a marriage.

For others, it's a course you decided to take in life, maybe about choosing a degree or wanting to learn something(literally taking a course for a skill) on your own.

For the rest, this might be just passivity and silence around others when there might be a tense situation. This is probably the only instance in this group where I'm guided to say that that is not the best choice at all, in fact, it might be setting you back.

"Don't assume when you don't see"

"Don't express what you don't know"

Interesting... I think you guys are not only concealing your truths, but also sharing things that mean little to you. You might be speaking a lot about politics, for example, when it's of little interest to you, and your opinions might be strong too. Or you might partake in gossip about people you don't care about at all. You might be wasting your energy on outside things that keep the life around you going in some way, but deep down you feel ignored and jaded, keeping your world a secret. A feeling I'm getting while writing this is exhaustion, and a string of hope, fleeting, barely there. It's like you have a little eagerness and enthusiasm for sharing your opinions/choices/reality(whatever you're hiding) all the while it's getting trampled on over and over and over...

This is torturous. You should be able to feel included in the life around you. Your values are imperative and they should reflect on your outward reality. I know that you are concealing them in hopes of working on making them manifest in reality, but no. Your struggle is not worth whatever can be achieved by this. It might make things way worse...

Trust yourself and don't listen to me if you think I'm wrong, especially if your situation does concern pregnancy or a huge life choice, but please, hear me out too if you can.

"There is a sign" is what I've got. You might be given a sign about where you will be heard, valued and supported. Something about the letter U and nuts is what I'm getting already😭. These, and the sign you might get can be signs of a place or a person, of where or to whom you should go to if you're tired of pretending and in need of a relief.

"Your mother loves you". This is definitely for someone. Most likely a feminine. Maybe for Irina.

I'm hearing "you have everything". There is so much that is a treasure around you, even if it seems like everything surrounding you only restricts you. You have that passion inside, and other people have not managed to erase your dreams completely, have they?

You might be close to reaching the finish line of whatever you're trying to achieve. This is an encouraging and proud sign that you are on the destined path, driving on the destined road. Keep going, it's right there...

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Signs: Shakespeare, drama, existentialism, period movies/tv, longing for love and passion, medieval fantasy/history/films/cosplay/comedy/anything, Aidan, Gwen/Gwyn, Scotland, Ireland, Wales, USA, The Witcher, Ciri from The Witcher, daydreamer, Phantom Of The Opera, past life regression attempts(successful or not), 124, Jack, Jackson, "liar liar", emotional/intense music, poems, boarding school?, "Jack and the beanstalk", rainy weather, Monty Python, quiet kid, bug/bugs. Nakshatras: Pushya, Bharani, Mula, Krittika.

Jack, this is the pile of Jack.

I don't know who this is. Jack might even be a character. It might be something different for everyone.

Ohhhh I got "Jack and the beanstalk", okayyy...

Someone here is non-binary, I'm also getting gay men in their younger years.

Middle child or youngest child?

Some of you love theater, but that's an obvious explanation of the images I'm getting. There's a flavor of dramaticism and theatrical behavior.

But the soul of Jack or whoever is reading this is that of a dreamer. And the dreamer that they are, dreams big. You have a wonderful, rich, spectacular mix of stories, feelings, aspirations inside of you, and that world is the highest, most precious thing for you.

Jack climbed the beanstalk, went higher and higher than his mundane world. And I think that's what the theme of the message is, in a way.

There's something fiery with the way you guys present yourselves, something filled with passion and real, intense but self-aware care. You seem aware of your nature and delight in it. There's something airy and "larger than life" about you, but at the same time_ aware and grounded. I don't think I'm describing it properly but that energy feels very beautiful to me.

Might be off topic but the images I'm getting here are: a redhead young woman with blue eyes(or is she blonde?) with her hair flying and she has a very present/aware but dreamy expression, red and black plaid, Scottish highlands, rainy/gloomy/misty weather in mountains, fire, colors red and green in general. Someone here might be from Scotland, have Scottish ancestry or maybe they just love the country to the point where it means a lot to them. For the rest, you might have been getting signs about it, or seeing Scotland as a sign? Anyway, it's a sign you're being given now.

"Jack and the beanstalk" is a fascinating story because it's describing an ambitious but mostly go-with-the-flow, relaxed boy, and him climbing the beanstalk and believing the person who gave him the beans can make people describe him as having his "head in the clouds", and also having the fiery drive to just climb it😭. Aries energy is just like that, so maybe you have Aries(sidereal, but ig can be tropical too) as an important placement. But I'm also getting air signs, and earth signs, and Pisces.

So when Jack came back from the land of the giants, he brought gifts. Gifts that he had stolen btw but let's not dwell on that😭

Weirdly I don't think this is a message about "be true to your dreams, believe in them and share their results with your loved ones" as sweet as that is, because you're way past that like that is not your focus at all. It's also not the message of "you have to ground your dreams somehow in the practical reality". I don't think that's an issue for you. Even if it is, I think there's a different message here and I'm not sure what it is yet...

Someone realized something that made them have clarity. It's you. You have seen/heard/realized something. I'm getting you laughing about it, maybe from relief, happiness and/or irony.

I'm getting a situation that concerns a person you know. They either helped you or you want to help them/have helped them. I don't think you're super close with them. They don't seem like a family member. But the situation is close to your heart, spirit and soul... You might think this is karmic, something you have to do. Like, if you help them you'll be rewarded and free of a burden.

"Jack is in their head"

That was said to me from my intuition. Why are you in your head? (All of you are Jack now for a second ok?😭 all of you are named Jack, for all intents and purposes)

"Jack is a good kid"

I know. You are. Maybe you needed to hear this.

Why is this connected to your "head in the clouds" or your character though? Maybe I needed to get into your energy.

I'm getting names Mabel, Mary, Harley and Holly now. Ok. Got them quickly. Might be you or someone else, maybe that person. Isla? Something about a cage, a secret understanding between you and that someone?

Are you worried? You are trapped somehow, feeling sad about it? But you were not harmed, at least that's not how you see it. You might feel guilty or sad for someone, and a lot. Oh I so did not expect this to go here. It's like a very engaging story.... which I got in the beginning. The drama, the story, the realization. What is happenning?

Did that happen already? And then you realized something and were done with it?

(Note: so I got up and walked around, hoping to get more info. This is what came to me, some of these details nay resonate with you but the message stays:)

"Jack is a kid(you might be in your early 20s at most). He lives in Scotland, has an older brother and a younger sister. Jack has great leadership potential and a character that suits it inside him, but he's too "over it" and has a grounded but high perspective that prevents him from engaging or caring too much, and makes him more deatched, kind if like you(so Jack is like me huh). Jack saw something he shouldn't have seen, realized something he shouldn't have known. He went and apologized to whomever it concerned and then left that situation. Now Jack feels even worse, worn out and guilty. In his mind, that situation is over, he does not want to go back to it, and he does not have to, but he must have peace of mind. Jack is a good kid. That girl(maybe that other person is a female. I'm getting Isla or and S name that has I in it?) will talk to you and give you relief. Don't worry Jack."

Wow. So that already happened. You might have any of the pronouns btw, I just wrote "he". So you know what happened and most don't. Maybe, in that situation, someone from your family has wronged that person or you indirectly/unknowingly harmed them, or thought you did. You went to explain yourself and be rid of it. I think it has really worn you out, made you think too much. And that situation is also a secret that you were not supposed to know.

If you have not resonated to a single thing in this reading yet, idk what to tell you. But here's the theme: you have a high perspective and understanding, against your will, but you also like it most times. You will reach success?? I'm getting success for you, congrats, mainly in self-development/dreams/career for some. Some of you might be on your way to fame actually, minor or major, but only take this if it makes sense for you. It might be unexpected though. You have to stop thinking too much about whatever that situation is that dragged you down energetically. If that part of getting invloved in a secret mess resonates, then that other person is going to, most likely, say thanks/apologize/acknowledge your actions.

You can take that experience as a lesson and a turning point. You might remember it with a lot of feeling in the future, reminiscing on it with quiet comtemplation or vivid memory.

I still don't know the whole story of this. Is there a secret child involved? Let me know maybe...

Either way, I hope you have a good day, Jack😉🤍

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Signs: clean white sheets, linen, horses, color white, green meadows, wired earphones, clear blue skies, cloudy evenings in summer, youth/childhood, 33, rivers, washing clothes in a river, nymphs, lambs, calf, distrust of older males, visible joy, hidden suspicions/fears, Annie/Annika/Anne/Anya..., golden brown/ light blonde or long and dark brown/black hair, white tea, Bern(Switzerland)(big sign), Geneva(Switzerland), Lorraine(Germany), white flowers, Jasmine(name or flower), Elizabeth/Liz, initial T(might be of anything). Nakshatras of Punarvasu, Jyeshta, Uttara Bhadrapada.

I'm getting something about a rural environment, maybe about a family home there. It's in the mountains and there is a lot of green there in the summer.

This is most likely a memory or a previous wish/dream. I'm hearing now it was something that has happened and something you have a clear/vivid memory of, still.

I'm getting a sense of a (extended)family gathered together somewhere. I'm seeing it's in Summer months but it could've been anytime. It seems like a happy and carefree occassion. There might have been a man/male, someone older who raised hair or set off a silent alarm within you. You, the person reading this, might have noticed something or just gotten a gut feeling about him that gave you an ick, a huge ick actually. What's interesting is that I think only you noticed it, there certaiy was not much validation from others when it came to that.

"You were not imagining it"

"Someone was wrong"

"Children notice a lot"

I am so sorry but I am getting creepy and disgusting energy from that person. An older female(maybe a male for some of you) in your family/in that group might have defended him or told you you were being silly, imagining it, making things up from little evidence. But you were not. I am getting, strongly, that you were right. I have no idea why this is coming up though. For most of you, I'm getting this is not something traumatic to you, at least not really, but if it is, I hope you get your justice, however much you need. You should not doubt your childhood self is the message for you.

Validation from wherever I'm hearing this messages(😭my intuition?) is here. I think you're revisiting that time in your life or just remembering how you felt then and realizing you're not so different from that version of you. This is going to give you a lot of validation and true confidence. When others ignored or doubted you, you held on to yourself. Good for you. But I have to say that you were most likely around 12-13 at most, for most of you, which makes your self-respect even more impressive. There were so many attempts, councious or not, at killing the trust you had for yourself. Maybe the years after tried to do it again but wow, even though you almost slipped, everything arrayed against you just fell away, on its own. And now you have come back to that place of an untainted perspective.

This message was for you if you had longer, brown hair then, or very light blonde, and/or if your or some other person's name there was Anne, Annie, Annika, Anya, or any variation of it. Even if not, that still might've been for you, but that was just confirmation for a collective.

(Added note: when I wrote "might've been" just now, I wrote "might've bern" at first. Bern, Switzerland might be of relevance to this, or the whole country of Switzerland, actually. Adding that to signs😄)

"Annika, you are spot on"

I'm going to feel embarrassed if none of you are named Annika or a similar name but that's what I got😶 maybe that name means something to you, even if you do not have a real-life person in your life who is called that.

Another name I'm getting is Liz, or Lizzie, Eliza... you get it, any variation of it. If someone here is named Elizabeth, then they most likely get addressed by a shortened version of the name, or were then.

I'm getting Annika and Anne names much more strongly though.

So going back to the message, anyone who invalidated you, made you feel like you were insane, they do not know what they are talking about, and never did. At least regarding your perspectives and your inner world in general. It is hard when family makes you feel unseen, alone and abandoned, but give yourself a break for a moment and realize, that you have been the one with the clear vision all this time, you are the one who has the best awareness.

I feel something like irony and calm reminiscing. You have grown so much, only to become the same person you were that time. And I still call that growth.

(Another note: when I wrote "same" I wrote "sane" at first. You ARE sane, have always been.)

I am truly sorry for those people who made you feel insane because they are going to be really put through an experience. Not that you care for it much. I think you guys are good at having a "birds eye view", a high perspective that allows you to see the whole picture clearly. You are not petty at all, and prefer peace and calm as your vengeance against those who wronged you. Those people are about to have the rug pulled from under their feet. They are going to feel like the earth has bern opened beneath them. A blessing that they have never gotten_ the truth revealed. You have known it all along.

I think you guys forgot about that situation, and now, going back to it emotionally or mentally, or even psychologically, might feel like you're yourself again, whole.

If you guys have not hit a milestone yet, then I'm seeing success for you. At the very least, I'm seeing mental assuredness and spritual security in you, calm(on the outside) passion and contentment in general, a lot of independence too. True freedom from unecccesary imposter syndrome is also there. A momentum is going to be picking up in your life, like a ball rolling and getting bigger, picking up more as it goes. Independence, validation, balance, peace💕 and you're looking good I see, you're feeling fresh, healthy and true, natural.

Do not go back to anyone who has wronged you, even if they want to apologize and want your forgiveness. It's rude not to do so for some people, but your momentum cannot bear to be affected by that familiar, harmful energy. Try to be as distant with them as possible, and try to spend as little energy on them as possible, preferrably, none at all.

I'm seeing travel for you guys and I want to congratulate you. Do not know why, but maybe the fact that you have arrived in this flow is enough.

👑 here, for you.

Please comment or reblog to let me know if and how this resonated. I'd love to know more.

[riptides-n-roses]

wet dream - roman reigns (18+)

⛧ pair - roman reigns x reader (it was about damn time i wrote one of his sexy ass)

⛧ tags: @88changemymind @reigns-prophecy @cyberdejos2 (please let me know if you would like to be tagged in this or any future ffs)

⛧ warnings: unprotected p in v, creamp!e, fingering, vaginal sex, unprotected sex, dream sex? (What is the fucking term idk), power imbalance, power dynamic (idol x fan)

⛧ okay! so i know this was going to be one where you and roman didn't get along well but have a sexual relationship but then i decided that was too corny - so i figured to make it into a fantasy dream where he has some fun with a fan (which is you of course) happy reading! [I honestly hate this one lmao]

⛧ You finally had the chance to meet your idol - however your relationship could turn in a way never imagined; Whole oneshot is just an erotic dream

⛧ word count: 1K

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To you, Roman Reigns was your favorite wrestler. You always kept track of his matches, any storylines or anytime he had the title around his waist or had his wiseman, Paul Heyman holding the title for him. You didn't think too much of having an attraction to him. Sure he was attractive, but you couldn't dare to think about him with you. "No that could never happen" you say "Besides I'm just a fan..."

To Roman, he has millions and millions of fans that were always tuned in, He was one of the top superstars of WWE and a name surely to be indicted into the Hall of Fame someday. He had everything - a title, his faction, his wiseman, and all of the people who acknowledged him. "I have it all" He would laugh to himself "No one can touch me."

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Today was a Meet and Greet and many superstars were attending to meet new fans and take pictures. To everyone's surprise, Roman Reigns was a special guest - a lot of people came to meet him. You were lucky enough to be one of the first people to get a picture with him and meet him face to face.

You were hesitant as the first few people were in line, making sure you didn't look too overdressed and fixing your hair, eagerly waiting to meet Roman. It was the first time you were going to meet a wrestler in general. You attended several shows in the past but not all of them due to finances and saving up for the future. But when Roman was announced to be there, you couldn't help but buy a ticket immediately.

You finally were next to meet him and to no surprise at all, he was as attractive as he was in the ring. As you made your way to meet Roman, you gave a gentle smile not wanting to be seen as weird. Roman admired your eyes, looking into them for a moment, before he spoke.

"Nice to meet you. What's your name?" He asked

"My name's Y/N. I'm happy to meet you." You smiled.

He smiled as the two of you posed for a picture, his grip around your waist a little tightening. But you didn't think much of it.

"Thank you so much, Roman this means a lot!"

Before you left, he wouldn't let go of your hand, you felt something like paper slip in. You turned back to him, studying his face as he shot a wink at you.

"It was nice to meet you too, Y/N..."

As you left, making sure no one was watching you, you peeked into your hand seeing what Roman left for you. Your heart skipped a beat as you read it

xxx-xxx-xxxx

Call me sometime, beautiful

- RR

He gave you his number? You were freaking out but you wouldn't dare tell anyone for multiple reasons. The first and most obvious reason was because of your status compared to him - wrestler/idol and fan.

You hurriedly went to your hotel room that you were staying at for the weekend, making sure no one knew about your secret.

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"Look how needy you are for me" Roman chuckled, admiring your body and your facial reactions, your eyes full of lust.

Your breath hitched as you felt his fingers circling your clit, making you whine for more.

"You're soaking wet, little one. Is this what you've wanted?" Roman asked, "You wanted your Tribal Chief to ruin you?"

"Y-Yes...ruin me" you whined, his fingers pushing deeper into your cunt.

"Good girl.." he laughed, enjoying your moans and whimpers.

He stopped toying your clit, admiring your body - every curve, every part of you.

"Lay on your back for me"

Without any hesitation, you followed his orders, your legs spread, ready for him to ruin you. You wanted to be his.

Roman forcefully grabbed your hips, positioning himself against your clit. He wasted no time pushing past your folds, his length expanding your walls. You whined from the sudden change of friction as his thrusts were already at a fast pace, your hands pathetically reaching to hold on to his toned body.

"Fuck that's a good little girl" He groaned, his grip tightening on your hips "You're taking me so well."

Your walls tightened around him as your stomach began to tighten from how fast he was going.

"T-Too fast!" you exclaimed, your eyes rolling back praying that he could slow down.

"Hmm? Tell me what you want, little one."

"Too fast! I'll cum too quickly!"

There was a slight pause from him before he laughed, one of his hands placing a grip around your throat.

"That's too bad. You're going to let me ruin this pretty pussy of yours."

Your voice was scarce, you whimpered from his roughness. It was way too much for you. You tried to push his arm off of you before he gripped tighter on your neck.

"I wouldn't recommend that, little one."

The sound of sex was filling your ears - your sparse voice, sounds of grunts and skin slapping against each other. It was heaven.

You shut your eyes tight, whimpering as you came all over Roman's cock, him following behind, his warm seed exploding into you.

"Good girl" He muttered, releasing his grip on your neck.

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You jerked yourself up, checking your surroundings. You were in your hotel room. Your room was dark, the moon shedding light against the windows.

You checked your body, checking for any soreness from around your throat. Nothing. You checked your phone for a certain number. It wasn't there. Finally, you checked your ticket to check on the event. It was in a couple of hours.

You sighed of relief, taking a few slight breaths to gather your thoughts.

After sulking at one of the walls for a few minutes, you finally fell back on your bed, trying to get some more sleep before your morning alarm.

"That was weird... but kinda hot."

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[kikyoupdates]

Otherworldly Attraction ⭑˚🔮⭑ 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔

yandere!jjk x f!reader

yandere, reverse harem, isekai, jujutsu kaisen x fem!reader, slowburn, slowburn yandere

You don't know how or why, but you've been isekai'd into the world of Jujutsu Kaisen. Although your first instinct is to stay away from the plot, you've been blessed with an abnormal amount of cursed energy, and for better or worse, you find yourself sucked into the storyline. You decide that you may as well use your newfound powers for the greater good, and if you're lucky, you might succeed in rewriting some of the characters' fates. But it turns out that your presence in this world is an even bigger deal than you first thought, and soon, everyone wants to make you theirs.

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For some reason, you open your eyes and find yourself in Fushiguro’s arms. 

“...ah. You’re awake.” 

His expression is a strange combination of concern and relief. He isn’t carrying you outright. Rather, he’s sitting against the base of a tree and helping cradle your neck on his shoulder so your head doesn’t droop down. Still, you feel the warmth of his touch and how gently his fingertips rest against your skin. The Fushiguro you know would never let you get this close to him. The Fushiguro you know thinks you’re some kind of shameless, braindead pervert. It’s obvious that this isn’t real.

After all, you died. 

The last thing you remember is being struck by the special-grade cursed spirit. Everything went black afterwards. By that point, your body was already mangled beyond repair, and there was no way you could have possibly survived another attack. Not to mention that the pain is gone now, and your injuries have seemingly disappeared. 

You must be in the afterlife right now. Is this heaven? Is that why you’re being granted such a blissful, happy scene? It would certainly explain why Fushiguro is holding onto you so gently. You were terrified of dying, but if these are the kind of moments you now have to look forward to, then maybe it’s not so bad. 

“This is a nice dream,” you sigh happily, wrapping both your arms around Fushiguro and snuggling up even closer to him. You tilt your head so that you can press one of your cheeks against his own, and just like the rest of his body, it feels pleasantly warm. 

It’s strange, though. You figured that, since this obviously isn’t real life, you could construct this reality however you saw fit. If it’s meant to be heaven, then naturally, it means that you’re being granted eternal happiness. This dream should unfold exactly the way you want it to.

And yet, Fushiguro pushes you away in a hurry. 

When you look back at him, his face is violently red.

“D-Don’t do that,” he stammers, looking embarrassed all of a sudden. “I just wanted to make sure you were okay now that you’ve regained consciousness. It wasn’t an invitation to get all handsy with me.”

You blink. He’s not reacting the way you expected. If he’s going to act all embarrassed, why was he holding you in the first place? This is a dream, after all. This is supposed to be the afterlife. A peaceful resting place for deceased souls.

…right? 

“I’m dead,” you blurt, but it sounds less like a statement, and more like a question. You knit your brows together in confusion. “I… was killed by the special-grade curse.”

Fushiguro stares at you. It’s subtle, but his expression softens, ever-so-slightly.

“No. You’re alive. Sukuna saved you. He healed your injuries too. He killed the special-grade curse and escaped from the detention center because Itadori was having trouble switching back. And then… he took Itadori’s body hostage by ripping out his heart.” 

What? Sukuna… really saved me? Like, for real? 

You’re in utter disbelief. When the special-grade curse was about to kill you, Fushiguro and Nobara had yet to escape the building. You never heard Fushiguro’s signal. Itadori was supposed to wait for that signal before swapping with Sukuna, and since the light in your eyes was already fading, naturally, you figured you were a goner. 

Which can only mean that Itadori must have swapped earlier than in canon. Out of sheer desperation to protect you. 

Even so, it’s difficult to believe that Sukuna actually spared your life. Sure, he’s been saying all kinds of creepy shit, like making you his woman or whatever, but at the end of the day, he’s a crazy murderer. He finds tormenting people to be the most enjoyable thing of all. The fact that the King of Curses bothered to go out of his way to keep your life intact…

Honestly, dying might have been more merciful than whatever the hell that sicko has in store for you. 

In any case, now’s not the time for an existential crisis. You should be grateful just to be alive, regardless of what Sukuna’s intentions are with you. You’ll worry about all that later. Right now, something else takes precedence. 

Itadori’s dead body is lying on the ground. 

You instinctively recoil at the sight. You already know he’s not actually dead, and that Sukuna will have no choice but to bring him back, but it still doesn’t make it any easier to stomach. Nobody wants to see their friend’s corpse. You glance away faster than you can even blink, tears pricking the corners of your eyes. 

“He sacrificed himself,” Fushiguro mumbles. His expression is visibly pained, even though he tried to hide behind his stoicism. “He knew he would die after Sukuna ripped out his heart, but he still switched back, to keep Sukuna from hurting anyone else. I knew all along that he would do something like that. I tried to fight Sukuna and pressure him into restoring Itadori’s body back to normal… but obviously, I failed.” 

Poor Fushiguro. He must feel guilty, even though anyone in his place would have been absolutely terrified to go up against the King of Curses. The fact that he lasted long enough to survive is already impressive enough.

You wrap your arms around yourself and look back towards Itadori’s bloody, lifeless body. He lies there amidst puddles formed by the rain, completely unmoving. It’s a painful sight. You’re tempted to avert your eyes again. It doesn’t matter that you already know he’s going to come back. The fact is that when Itadori switched back with Sukuna, he believed he was going to die. And yet he was still able to make such a horrifying, selfless choice, for the sake of everyone else. 

Itadori isn’t dead for good. That much is true. 

But his suffering is only beginning, and that—that is what breaks you. That’s what makes the pain in your chest downright unbearable. That’s what makes more tears form and stream down your cheeks. 

Fushiguro watches you sit there, trembling, as you quietly sob. He valued Itadori’s life, and he genuinely wanted to save him, but that being said, he wasn’t able to shed any tears on his behalf. They hadn’t even known each other for very long. It’s an unfortunate tragedy, without a doubt, but he has no choice but to push forward. 

The same can’t be said for you, though. 

How must you be feeling right now? You were friends with Itadori well before your transfer to Jujutsu High. He’s seen firsthand just how close the two of you were. The life of a jujutsu sorcerer is riddled with danger, but this is all new for you. Up until recently, you were living an ordinary life. You apparently couldn’t even see curses before roughly a few weeks ago.

You must be in an absurd amount of pain right now. He can’t possibly relate, or even understand. And he already knows he’s terrible at comforting people. 

“I’m sorry,” is all Fushiguro can think to say. He knows it won’t do anything to ease your suffering. He knows it’s a shallow gesture at best. 

You sniffle, then turn towards him with puffy, reddened eyes. 

“There’s no need to apologize,” you say, straining a smile. “It’s amazing that you even went up against Sukuna in the first place. You fought to protect Itadori. I’m sure it meant a lot to him. I’m sure he appreciated that you did your best to save him. You have no reason to feel sorry. Please don’t ever blame yourself.”

Fushiguro’s eyes widen. Even in a time like this, you made the effort to smile for his sake. Even though you should feel nothing but bitterness towards him, because he failed to save your dear friend, you’re still bothering to reassure him. Despite the fact that your anguish far outweighs his own.

It’s obvious now that he was too harsh on you from the start. He was far too quick to judge. He perceived you as fickle, thoughtless, not to mention incredibly suspicious. 

But he knows better now. 

You’re kind. And gentle. And much more mature than he first thought. 

Fushiguro really likes those qualities in a person. 

This is so awkward. 

It’s a new day, and you’re back at Jujutsu High, sitting on some steps alongside Fushiguro and Nobara. Suffice to say, the mood is gloomy, and you’re sandwiched in between the two of them as they lament Itadori’s passing.

“He kept telling us to live long lives… but then he went ahead and died himself,” Nobara mutters. 

She was discharged from the hospital quickly enough, and thankfully, her wounds weren’t serious enough to warrant any concern. You were worried that since Fushiguro took longer to get away from the special-grade curse and go save her, she might have gotten hurt more badly this time, but that’s fortunately not the case. In fact, you were hurt the worst out of everyone—not counting Itadori getting his heart ripped out by Sukuna in the end.

Nobara rests her chin on the palm of her hand and glances towards Fushiguro. “Hey, you. Is it your first time having a partner die?” 

“It’s the first time it was someone my age,” Fushiguro replies, staring down at the ground.

“I see.” 

Normally, this is the part where she would make a remark about how well he’s taking the situation, all things considered, but this time, she stops herself. 

On account of the fact that you’re with them. 

“This must be really hard for you,” Nobara mumbles. Her expression and tone of voice are noticeably softer now. “Since the two of you were such good friends. I’m sorry that you have to go through this. It’s messed up.” 

You fidget uncomfortably. Even though you predicted this would be the case, it feels really, really wrong to grieve someone’s death when you know that said person will be coming back to life in due time. You obviously have no choice but to pretend otherwise, but it doesn’t make you feel any less slimy about it. It’s as if you’re making light of their heartache. 

“I… only knew Itadori for a few weeks longer than you guys, so I can’t act like we’d spent our entire lives together or anything.” You pause, pressing your hands together. “Still, I could tell he was a really good guy. I realized that from the moment I met him. I’m just upset that he had to suffer so much. It’s unfair that the world is so cruel to kind-hearted people like him.”

There. You’re not technically lying about what you said. You are upset because of what Itadori’s had to endure—and what he will continue to endure, going forward. These feelings of yours aren’t disingenuous in the slightest. 

Still. You hate having to pretend he’s dead when he’s obviously not. You’re already counting down the days until Itadori comes back and makes his big reveal. 

Anyways, it’s probably about time now, right? Any second now, they should be making an appearance. 

“...what’s this? You’re looking even more glum than usual, Megumi. Is this a wake or something?” 

Cutting through the heavy silence is a girl’s strong, imposing voice, and you already know who it is, well before you even lift your head to look up. 

Fushiguro blinks. “Ah, Zen’in. You’re back.”

“Stop calling me by my last name,” the girl snaps. “You know I hate it when—” 

“Maki, Maki!”

The girl—Zen’in Maki—turns around, where two other students are frantically gesturing to her. Namely, a panda (who is appropriately named Panda), and a comparatively shorter male student with platinum blond hair.

These students are your upperclassmen, the second-years, and you’ve been expecting their arrival ever since you moved to Jujutsu High. 

Anyways, Panda is understandably freaking out because of the tone-deaf comment Maki just made. 

“Someone really did die yesterday!” Panda panics. “One of the first-year boys!”

“Bonito flakes,” Inumaki sighs disapprovingly, clearly emphasizing the gravity of the situation. 

It only takes a second for Maki’s face to go pale as a sheet. 

“Tell me that sooner, you idiots!” she fumes. “Now I look like some kind of heartless, cold-blooded demon!” 

“Well… you pretty much are.” 

“Tuna mayo.”

Their entrance in the story is actually rather comical, considering the morbid circumstances in which they’ve turned up. You watch, struggling to suppress your smile, as all three of them bicker in a loud, obnoxious fashion. You, Fushiguro, and Nobara are supposed to be in mourning right now. Although you suppose this ridiculous scene is meant to be lifting your spirits.

“Who are those guys?” Nobara rudely points, looking far from impressed. 

“The second-years,” Fushiguro replies. “Zen’in is the best of all students at wielding cursed tools. Next to her is the Cursed Speech user, Inumaki. He only speaks using onigiri ingredients. And then there’s Panda. There’s another second-year as well, Okkotsu, who’s the only one I can sincerely respect, but he’s overseas right now.”

“Um. You’re not going to elaborate on the panda named Panda?” 

Nobara is clearly wary of the admittedly odd upperclassmen she’s just been introduced to, but naturally, none of this comes as a shock to you. Even though you’re slowly getting used to meeting more and more characters in the flesh, you still can’t help but feel excited every time it happens. You hope your enthusiasm isn’t stupidly obvious. It’d be weird if you were grinning like a madman right after your friend just died. 

“Sorry for showing up so unexpectedly, especially when you’re in mourning,” Panda apologizes, bringing his hands (or should you call them paws?) together. “The truth is, we actually wanted to speak to you guys about something. We’d like you all to participate in the Kyoto Sister School Exchange Event.”

He’s referring to an event in the future, whereupon the Tokyo and Kyoto branches of Jujutsu High will get together. It’s usually exclusively reserved for second-year and third-year students, but the third-years are currently suspended from school, hence why they’ve asked your group to participate in their place.

“The event has the principals of both Tokyo and Kyoto schools each propose a competition to be held for the day, over the course of two days,” Panda explains. “Well, that’s all on paper, though. Pretty much every year, the first day is a team battle, and the second day consists of individual battles.” 

“Salmon,” Inumaki nods. 

“Individual and team battles?” Nobara blinks. It takes a few seconds for everything to sink in, and suddenly, her eyes widen. “Wait… we’re going to fight?! Against other jujutsu sorcerers?”

Maki grins. “Yeah. It’s a jujutsu battle where anything goes, apart from outright killing each other, of course.

“Don’t worry,” Panda reassures. “We’ll train all of you so that you can hold your own. Just count on us!”

He starts excitedly punching the air, and you have the sudden urge to wrap your arms around him and rub his fuzzy belly. You wonder if he’d let you do that at some point. Knowing him, you think you have a pretty good shot. 

“So?” Maki asks, arching a brow. “You’re gonna participate, right? Do it for your fallen comrade. I’m sure all of you want to get stronger.”

It goes without saying that they’re going to agree. Even Itadori will be there to participate in the event. The first day will be very eventful thanks to a certain cursed spirit attacking… but that’s still a ways off. All you can do is train to prepare yourself and hope you’re strong enough by then to contribute somehow. Maybe, if you play your cards right, it’ll be possible to take down Hanami earlier than in canon. Maybe you can help ensure that the intruders’ losses will be bigger this time around. 

There’s something else that happens before that, though. Something that… you want to avoid at all costs. 

Junpei.

Unless you figure out some way to get involved, Junpei’s death is all but assured. Fushiguro and Nobara weren’t involved in this arc, and Itadori undertook the mission without them knowing he was still alive. Since you’re here with them, and you’re supposed to believe that Itadori is gone, how can you insert yourself in Junpei’s story? How are you meant to increase his odds of survival if you never actually cross paths with him?

It’s not looking good. Your knowledge of the story is next to useless if you aren’t able to actually do something with it. 

Junpei’s story is unbelievably tragic. He should never have gotten caught up in this kind of thing. He should have been allowed to have a normal, happy life. He’d already suffered enough, even before he met Mahito. 

You need to save him. 

Fushiguro glances over at you, frowning slightly. “What’s wrong? You haven’t said anything for a while. Do you not feel like participating in the exchange event?” 

“No, I’ll participate. Sorry. I was just… thinking about something.”

You throw on a quick, reassuring smile. There’s no need to despair. You were brought to this world for a reason. Whether it was the universe’s way of deciding to torment you, or perhaps it was intended as a challenge of sorts, it doesn’t matter. 

Now that you’re here, you sure as hell aren’t going to waste this chance. 

“It’s nice to be officially meeting all of you,” you beam, going around shaking all of the second-years’ hands. You stop in front of Inumaki the longest, struggling to suppress your smile because of how fucking cute he is. He even greets you by saying ‘kelp’, and it’s a miracle you don’t melt right on the spot. 

Fushiguro watches, with a tired expression, as you proceed to fangirl again. Perhaps something isn’t quite right with you after all. It’s very easy to tell who you find attractive, since you’re not exactly being subtle about it. 

Still.

He wonders why it annoys him so much. 

Itadori Yuji is alive. 

Admittedly, when Gojo watched Itadori’s presumed dead body rise up, like something straight out of an exorcism, he was pretty damn shocked. It didn’t take him too long to come to terms with the situation, though. Itadori is Sukuna’s vessel, after all. Sukuna must have decided to restore Itadori’s body, purely for his own sake. 

The higher-ups want Itadori dead. Gojo knew that much from the start. It was nothing short of a miracle that he managed to delay Itadori’s execution, but he should have known that they would cook up a scheme at some point or another. The fact that a group of inexperienced first-years were dispatched to deal with a cursed womb that ended up becoming a special-grade curse… it’s obvious they jumped on an opportunity to get Itadori killed off. 

Fine, then. Since it’s come to this, Gojo has no choice but to keep Itadori hidden. At least for a little while. It’ll be easier if the higher-ups think he’s dead. Gojo can train him in secret in the meantime and help him build up some strength. So that he’ll be better equipped to deal with this kind of thing in the future.

The autopsy report will state that Itadori died from having his heart torn out, just as everyone already presumed. No one could possibly suspect otherwise. 

And yet, here you are, looking up at him with wide, trembling eyes.

“Sensei,” you say, and he watches as you swallow hard, as if choosing your next words wisely. He has no idea what to expect. When it comes to you, he really, truly, doesn’t have a clue how you’ll surprise him next. 

It takes a lot to catch Gojo Satoru off guard, but somehow, you manage to do it every time, without fail. 

“Itadori… isn’t dead. He can’t be. I refuse to believe it.”

Gojo tries—but fails—to hide the smile spreading across his lips. 

You really are a thing of wonder.

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[southconfessionpark]

i love south park, i feel like it impacted my life in a goodish way, the episodes make me laugh even though ive watched them enough to know what happens with just knowing what episode it is yeah liking south park could be seen as embarrassing cause of the fandom n shit but does that matter? it makes ME happy, and if it makes someone else happy then that makes me happier because someone else likes it. And if someone does hate the show, i dont really care, if they hate it they hate it, why should i fight them about it? they have their reasons and i should respect that and what i like about this show, is that you can watch whatever episode in whatever order you like cause the episodes arent a direct storyline!!!! Some are, yeah of course but its always obvious what ones they are so you can just avoid those. ppl would probably get annoyed that you DONT watch all the seasons in order, but you know what you can do? ignore them!! watch the show whoever you want! Heck, even watch it backwards if you want to!! they cant stop you i like this show because you can watch it as much as you want and since it has a bunch of seasons its SOOO REWATCHABLEE and even with that, you can think of headcanons and draw them and do whatever you want since you can have fun doing that! someone doesnt like how you draw kyle? not your problem. someone doesnt like your peruvian craig hc? again, not your problem! what i mean is, i like this show because i have fun with it, and you should too. i like this show, and i dont think im going to stop liking it anytime soon sorry for the bit of a rant i just wanted to get out that i liked this show

[teambuddie]

when i started to watch 911 i already liked buddie, but i wanted to give b*ckt*mmy a chance, i really did, but honestly, i just couldn't and i'm gonna explain why.

1. eddie was haunting the narrative.

after watching 6 seasons of buck dating women i'm not gonna lie i was pretty excited to see him flirt with tummy because yay bisexual buck!!! and the very first scene i was filled with joy until... eddie was in every corner of the relationship. i know, the writers were using buddie as a diversion, they wanted to surprise us that hey he was jealous of tummy not eddie! but then they kept eddie haunting the narrative through the whole relationship. every bt scene eddie was there or was mentioned and obviously the writers did that on purpose, because we're supposed to keep thinking about eddie, we're supposed to know buck is still thinking about eddie even if he's dating someone else. to me the writers made bt impossible to exist separated from eddie and buddie and that made it impossible to me to truly give bt a chance even if i was already biased.

2. tummy is BORING.

look, i was so happy buck was gonna date a man and figure out his sexuality, i really was, but holy shit tummy made it almost unbearable to watch some scenes. how can a man be so boring??? he has zero personality, zero charm, zero everything. every LI from both buck and eddie had at least SOMETHING going on, you know? even natalia and ana had more personality than tummy and that's a bit insane like how a character who showed up for like 5 episodes is more well developed and interesting than you?? and again, to me the writers did that deliberately, they wanted us to feel like something was missing, they didn't want us to get attached to tummy because he wasn't going to be a constant, he was a plot device and he was treated as such. no personality, no complexities, nothing, a blank state.

3. the acting.

this is probably gonna sound mean, but i have to be honest. one of the things that made it even more impossible to enjoy bt was l*u's acting. imo 911 has fantastic acting, like ANGELA BASSETT is on the show, the bar is high guys! even side characters act really well throughout the show and yeah sometimes there is overacting, but mostly is really good and expressive. and then there's l*u... he's so stale, so unexpressive, so bland is like watching a sixth grader acting on a broadway production (but a sixth grader would do a better job probably). i can't take tummy seriously as a character because not only is he boring but i don't feel like watching a "real" character, just a person pretending to be a character and i know that's what acting is but good acting makes you forget that what you're watching is fiction and makes you feel for the characters. l*u's acting achieves none of that.

4. b*ckt*mmies.

i understand when b*ckt*mmies say they can't enjoy buddie bc of the fandom, i do bc they just pushed me even further away from bt. the way they reacted to the break up was... something. some of them had valid reasons to be upset and ofc they were gonna be emotional about their ship breaking up, but the whole "this is homophobic/biphobic" discourse was too much. first they decide to simply forget michael was also an elder gay and say that bt was the only gay couple that showed someone older can be happy... like, are you serious???? "oh but michael wasn't a main character" but his storyline was very well developed and it just as a representation as bt. even better than bt bc no one was saying how he wants the other to have daddy issues (that irked me so much god WHY WOULD HE SAY THAT????). calling ostark biphobic bc he said he wants buck to sleep around again??? as if he said that bc he's bi when it's obvious he said buck should sleep around bc he's buck. ostark showed nothing but support to bi buck and he was always so excited about the storyline, but since he wasn't too onboard with bt and said he'd like for his character to sleep around a bit suddenly he's biphobic???? the way they decided to interpret what tummy said as him saying buck isn't sure of what he wants when it's clear he meant that buck should explore more his sexuality not to be sure but because that's what he probably did and he knows it's healthy and normal to get with new people to figure out what you like and what you want. nothing about the breakup and what ostark/tim said was prejudiced and while i understand feeling hurt and interpreting some stuff with a negative light, i don't think they were being fair to the writing and the crew.

maybe i'm biased bc buddie was already my ship even before i watched 911, but honestly i think if they wanted us to root for bt they'd make their relationship more compelling, they'd give tummy more personality, they'd not make eddie haunt the narrative, but that's not what they did and you may think that's "unfair" to bt and tummy, but honestly it was a warning sign b*ckt*mmies ignored... the sign that said: "this is not meant to be". when tummy called buck evan it wasn't without a deeper meaning, it showed us he was the odd one out, it showed us he didn't belong. and so, he's gone.

[ven0moir]

Dissecting Mike's S4 journey following context clues & puzzle pieces provided in-show.is Mike fully aware he likes Will?

The show has been setting Byler to be obvious in retrospect. From a marketing perspective, it should encourage the audience to go back and rewatch the show with a completely new and clearer perspective on Mike's character. It would ideally provide a 'rewind' effect--as if a blindfold has been removed from their eyes. Like it was always hidden in plain sight.

"The world is full of obvious things, which no one by any chance ever observes."

That is what will make Byler effective storytelling & feel like genuine pay-off. When you bring up the possibility of Byler to a GA or Byler non-believers, their main reason for not considering it an option is because, right now, Byler seems to have too much to unpack--from Mike having a 'realization' that he likes Will, to having time to reflect on that idea, to him accepting that idea, and then getting together with Will. If the Duffers crammed all of that into their final season, it'll feel like something done last minute instead of a well thought-out storyline.

"We're in endgame territory now." -- Duffers about 'showing their hand' during S4.

This tells me that the Duffers must have laid down the puzzle pieces already, with the intention to pick them back up & ensemble them together in S5 to provide the full picture.

Let's center Will first before we talk about Mike, considering it is his emotional arc the Duffers say will hopefully tie the whole series together:

Consider how happy Will was at the idea of giving Mike the painting at the start of the season. vs How miserable he looks after actually doing it due to the mess that was S4.

Will, at the end of S4, is heartbroken. If he had any hope whatsoever that his feelings could've been reciprocated, even if it was just 1%, it is now at 0% going into S5. This, compounded with everything else he's gone through, was the final straw in terms of casting Will in a shadow of self-doubt.

This was important because Will's ability to believe in himself + his perception of reality is instrumental in defeating Vecna. But right now? He's lost hope in himself.

The narrative has continuously pushed him towards isolation and disconnect from his loved ones, preparing both he, and the audience, for his lowest point ( birthdaygate, wishing he wasn't born on his birthday, feeling like a mistake, like everything inside him is worthless/rotten, etc etc all the angst ) before he rises as the hero of his own story.

However, it is unfair to expect him to rise up without any help and connection at all. His loved ones coming together for him is important to help him self-actualize and ground himself, but Mike being brave enough to confess first is as instrumental as Will's belief in himself, since that is direct evidence that Will's instincts are on point.

With this said, it would be a disservice to Will if Mike ... a) Confesses only after learning about how Will feels first. Or, b) Realizes his feelings (+confesses) during a moment when Will's in danger/about to die. Not to mention, this already happened in S2. c) Isn't supported by his own family / friends in some way, as it ties into the themes of family that are also an integral part of their arcs.

They cannot make Mike's feelings for Will all about guilt the same way they have made his feelings for Eleven revolve around guilt, because then Byler becomes Mileven 2.0 and Mike has just shifted partners without truly integrating the lessons learned from his first relationship. Which was the whole point of Mileven to begin with for both El and Mike.

Will, at this point in his life, benefits from having a loving, supportive partner that is brave enough to fight for what they could have. Mike HAS to be the one to confess first, without having guarantee that his feelings are reciprocated. He needs to be brave. Him already having guarantee that Will loves him wouldn't really do Mike The Brave's arc justice either.

So, let's observe S4 Mike under the assumption that Mike is already fully aware that he likes Will. No moment of "realization and then starting a journey of self-acceptance all in S4" needed. It is us the audience that haven't been made aware of it yet.

That's the most fun option.

THE BEGINNING VS THE END S4 was all about Mike and Will both pushing each other away without realizing it, when in reality they both wished to grow closer, and thus helped Vecna succeed. Not only did he open the gates, he also has Will exactly where he needs him.

However, there's some saving grace.

They had some good moments, which will help them get their feelings and thoughts in order.

Will reassured Mike throughout the whole season, and Mike asked Will to be a team / best friends and even said Hawkins isn't the same without him.

Now, let's set Will aside and focus on Mike.

BACK TO S2 Mike's realization about how much Will means to him occurred right here:

This why this scene is contextually connected to his S4 love confession to Eleven. I also made this post about Mike 'realizing' that "Will wasn't like him" during the Snowball.

This, then, ensues his S3 arc of pretending to be someone he's not.

Contrary to popular belief, I do think Mike genuinely enjoyed the time spent with El ( bi Mike truthers rise? ), and that it was a nice distraction from his ... feelings. Which he was trying to kill. Because of it being a distraction, he wasn't ever able to connect with El beyond a physical level. He just did not know how.

This scene is coincidentally ( or not lmao ) the scene where we learn about Karen spying on his phone calls.

If I am right about this, then this means that both Jonathan and Karen overheard an important conversation between Mike and Will that made them realize how one of them felt for the other. They are connected via this parallel. Karen's dates back all the way to S1.

Whatever Karen learned during that phone call 'confirmed' to her that Mike has feelings for Will, the same way that what Jonathan heard in the van confirmed to him that Will has feelings for Mike. Feelings that blur the lines & extend beyond those of mere friendship. And even though I do not enjoy this invasion of Mike's privacy, I also do think these three ( I'm including El here ) are going to need all the help they can get sorting through the mess that is their love triangle.

I'm not going to touch on their fight in S3 because to me what's most important is this moment right here:

They had a moment here, that they both became aware of. And right then and there, in this moment, they both had hope. That they weren't alone.

"No way ... he's like me?"

THE ORDER OF THINGS

Let's consider that between S3 and S4, Will was more optimistic than Mike was--when we learn he likes someone enough to be acting noticeably "weird" about it, he is framed surrounded by art, yellow tones, we see him painting with greens and blues--he's creating, inspired and his feelings for Mike are helping him heal & grow. We even have a poster that says "The Cure" there in case you don't  ✨Believe ✨. He is choosing Alan Turing as his hero--he might still be closeted, but in S4, he has found profound motivation to live his truth and embrace his identity thanks, in great part, to his feelings for Mike.

Now, imo these emotions didn't come from their last meeting in S3 alone, no.

They came from something else too.

Their last phone call, which Karen heard.

Consider these crumbs:

The theme of 'dreams' in S4 ( Two songs: California Dreamin' playing as Mike reads El's letter & Dream a little dream of me associated to Henry and Patty, Robin saying "I found the girl of my dreams", Sixteen Candles ( easter egg hidden in the show ) featuring a scene of the protagonist saying that she had a "weird dream" about her crush. There are way more but those are the ones I remember off the top of my head ) Now bare with me here because this is a shot in the dark a la Nancy Wheeler.

#DREAMGATE

"... I had a dream about you [last night]." " ... really? What was it?" "I ... don't remember. I just know you were in it." ( is lying, he does remember what it was )

Karen, our avid romance reader, picked up on the implications of this part of the conversation and she knew, right then and there, in that moment, that Mike had feelings for Will. And this inspired Will's next action: to draw that heart and crown on Mike's shield as a 'clue' for him.

My guess is Will got so giddy he didn't even know how to react and the conversation ended up a bit awkwardly as a result ( so #infp-coded fr ), and then on top of that, Will just fell off the face of the earth afterwards, with Mike's attempts to reach him going to nigh.

The way something like this would completely turn the tides because POOR. MIKE.

Imagine being bold enough to make a MOVE of that magnitude only for your crush to disappear on you afterwards. And next thing you know, he's been painting for someone else??!?!!? I do not know about you but I'd have been acting The Exact Same Way Mike was.

"The key with girls is pretending you don't care. It drives them crazy."

Mr. Cool Man at the airport.

in terms of hope, Mike might be on the same boat as Will--hopeful, but way more pessimistic and assuming the worst and interpreting evidence as being stacked against that idea. Not to mention he's still dating El and has to also navigate that.

Nonetheless, he was hoping the painting was for him, but required more information. Here's a fun idea for you--he kept re-reading El's letter hoping to find some 'clue' as to who Will was painting for. And that's why he looks so disappointed after Will didn't give it to him at the airport and was so defensive at rink-o-mania.

It is my personal interpretation that Mike asked about Eleven's friends because he was secretly hoping that Eleven would spend more time with her friends than him, just like how she ditched him to be with Max in S3. If that happened, then he and Will would be able to spend time together and he'd acquire more knowledge about the painting. He was hoping the pattern would repeat, bc he believed El.

But the whole world just had to go to shit, huh?

[demodraws0606]

I'm kinda peeved off that I'm seeing a few people that have the critique that Siffrin didn't deserve their "happy ending" in the end, that he was forgiven too quickly. I'm bad about this for actually a number of reasons.

(Warning this will be long because I am irrationally passionate about this, totally not because I relate to Siffrin or anything ahahahahaha)

First, logically, Siffrin's actions definitely are not as awful as people make it out to be especially not in the context of a time loop story. The worst Siffrin has done was his actions in the Bad Touch achievement and the last loop, one being purely optional. Outside of that, any tampering Siffrin had done was purely harmless, sure it's existentially horrifying but it's not like he did any actual manipulation.

You could also argue since Siffrin was in control of the loop, they are responsible for everything that was happening but we know full well he wasn't in control literally, his emotions were in control of the loop. Considering, a whole thing in this story is how acting as though you're fine and trying to control your emotions don't work, I don't think we can make the argument Siffrin was really in control.

He only wanted to trap everyone in the timeloop when it already had destroyed his mind. I thought it was obvious it was a monkey's paws situation.

The last time loop was the breaking point of Siffrin and it's one of the things he does suffer consequences from, they do get mad at him and he does apologize. What else do you want him to do ?

The Bad Touch achievement is the only thing that could be said to be "unforgivable" but it's optional and as far as I know it's hinted that Siffrin would talk about it with Isabeau. In fact it's said that even though right now they're fine and okay, they literally say they are okay to be mad at Siffrin later.

And also, it's not taking into acount the Actual feelings of his family either. They can't remember the loops and they have their own reason to not still be mad with him, so why should they hold Siffrin accountable for feelings they don't have.

In fact, the storyline strikes the perfect balance to not have Siffrin do such horrible action that he'd actually be unforgivable but still have him do enough that it shows what the loops are doing to him but....

..it's not just logically, judging Siffrin's actions as bad/good things like that is not just what's wrong with the narrative that Siffrin should've suffered more consequences. It also goes against the narrative itself.

For me at least, ISAT is a game about mental illness but also recovery. It's not coincidental a lot of people project their own mental issues onto Siffrin, it's not just a "ahahaha they're so relatable !!", it's a genuine part of the story.

I could make an entire essay about it but that's not the point, what would a story about these themes be if the ending was just "you need to repent for the things you did during your own mental breakdown"

It may seem ridiculous after all this that they'd just forgive Siffrin after all of this, but really hasn't most of the points against Siffrin's morality been coming from Siffrin themselves.

Siffrin believed he deserved to be rejected, that he deserved the suffer, that he was disgusting. It was these belief that kept him from talking about the loop because for him, everything was his fault. Not just because he created the loop but because the desire of staying with them was the very sin he hated himself for since the beginning.

So for all that self hatred to be met with, strange acceptance. It almost seems ridiculous, and Siffrin's talk with Odile in the epilogue reinforces how almost comedic it is.

It's close to reality, isn't it ? How many times have you thought you did something completely unforgivable to someone you cared about and you were waiting for them to be furious at you, but that moment never came.

Because they just simply weren't hurt enough by what happened. And sure it was definitely a bad thing you did and they were maybe mad in the moment, but you apologized. Sure there could be more consequences for what you did but what's the point in asking for them to be more mad at you ?

Shouldn't you strive to be better than beg to be hurt for your actions ?

Do you think being hurt, being yelled at would make anything better other than just feed the voice in your head what it wants to hear ?

Weird flowery talk aside, it just doesn't fit the themes and the narrative of the story is what I'm saying. Asking for more punishement for Siffrin goes against what the story is about.

It's just like complaining that the looping mechanics are too frustrating, that's part of the package deal bb !!

Fuck the idea of "repenting by suffering through the consequences" !!! Having to deal with "blinding unrelenting forgiveness and kindness" is in !!!!

[dramasauce]

Cdramas I watched in 2024 List

(dramas with gifs are excellent/great and actually worth watching in my opinion. The others are not, watch at your own risk)

My Boss (2024)-There were a couple of turns in this drama that I wasn't crazy about. But they were cute when they were cute. The cases made no sense.

Fake It Till You Make It-realistic romance. Almost to the point where he's kind of unlikeable. But it's kind of hot too.

My Piggy Boss-cute mini. Loved it.

Have a Crush on You-another mini. fun

Secretary Bai Wants To Resign Everyday-a mini. He's so hot.

Admist a Snowstorm of Love-he had serial killer eyes. That's how much he loved her. FROM FIRST SIGHT. If you want a mature romance where Leo was all over her every CHANCE he got. Here's the show. Boring ass billards aside. The skinship was top tier.

My Special Girl-forgettable tbh but not bad.

Just Spoil You-mini kinda fun.

Golden House Hidden Love-that ending pmo. He's so fine though.

Love Me Love My Voice-high production quality. Cringey like love020 but easier to sit through. Better acting too.

Story of Kunning Palace-couldn't stand this female lead. She sucked. And I don't know what she saw in SML. She was stuck on him forever. When the ML was right there morally grey and HOT.

Love is Sweet-rewatch

Only 4 Love-she was big LIAR towards the end for no reason. And they gave Dylan no reason to be liked.

The Substitute Princess's Love-eh

The Legend of Shen Li-Made me cry in the first 6 episodes. He became a little annoying once they weren't on earth. But happy ending and still pretty good.

Born To Run-TEARJERKER but beautiful story. The mom on the right deserved a worse fate.

Blossoms in Adversity-Mature FL and flawed but strong quiet ML. Really strong storyline and comfortable romance.

I May Love You-he didn't like that girl. And when he did I didn't care. Love Miles though usually.

Falling Into You-although they ignore a GLARING mental illness moment. The skinship was PEAK. The romance was good when it happened and they remained strong. Anyu looks super young here but she doesn't look as old as people make it seem. I loved them both.

Men in Love-so bad I didn't finish. Most wishy washy FL ever. She really pmo bad.

Moon Love-mixed feelings. Because low budget but sweet and sad at the same time.

Meet Yourself-long winded and boring in a comfortable way. But that's the kind of dramas she does. Very slow slice of life. Sweet. Worth it.

Wonderland of Love-Mr. And Mrs Smith levels of insane chemistry but he loved her way more than she loved him and it was obvious to the point where it made it not fun. She was kind of self centered, he came second and usually third.

You are My Secret-I didn't like the way she took things that happened at work out on him.

The Unexpected Marriage-cute enough

Love Scenery-cute time passer.

Are You the One-chemistry was so good. I know people hate the lying aspect but I'm sorry it makes sense. These two deserved. One of the best of the year. Need them in another drama together.

Melody of Golden Age-I enjoyed this. Really made Ding appeal to me on another level. I think the ending was stumble-y but I enjoyed for the most part.

Fateful Love-it was okay for the first like 30 and then... eh not bad.

19th Floor-one of the top of the year. It's this year's Reset. It did get a little shakey towards the end but that because it had so many episodes. Still great.

Love Like the Galaxy-I DID NOT like this and Idk how anyone else did. But it has plenty of fans, it wont miss me. She "settled" for him and he loved her to the point of insanity. Idk what he saw, she kind of sucked. He had to watch her love someone else for waaay too long.

Forever and Ever- I didn't watch the prequel show because I didn't want to put myself through the sadness. This could be considered boring but it was a comfortable boring. I enjoyed it. She LAID THIS BOY DOWN EVERY CHANCE SHE GOT. lol

As Beautiful You-It was okay. The business parts are so long and boring. Xu Kai was so fine.

Miss J-Fun, quirky, and charming.

In Blossom-I enjoyed it. Idk why people complain about Fl's acting. It was fine.

A Journey to Love-sigh I gave in and watched it because of the chemistry that oozed off the gifsets and I wasn't disappointed. These two need another show together that ends HAPPY.

All in all a good year for my drama consumption. Let's see what next year brings!

[ominouslemonnade]

tiny rant

ok im just gonna ramble a bit here.

So, to be honest, not really happy with the whole paywall thing slashfic got going on, every other painfully obvious important option that changes the course of the story's trajectory is hit with the hearts thingy, it kinda feels like the mc is being trapped in some sort of inescapable box . Ive noticed that everytime theres this "upcoming big moment" it leads to another downer and the authors are really milking and dragging it out for very long— by adding more characters that do not play a vital role to the main story, plotlines being stacked one after another ,it has gotten to the point that the whole of slashfic is getting difficult to keep track of, the storyline is messy with all these new plotlines, the character writing being done dirty. Despite all that, i think slashfic can *still* be made into something more interesting , something that is not as uncomfortable as the questionable ads they have...

Another thing— the development of relationships of mc with the main 4 is too quick, too forced i feel. Would've been more reasonable if the slashers slowly , and i mean by their own pace, gain trust in mc and not just literally jump right into "spice" .

So heres my conclusion to this: Slashfic has a very messy story, tricky to keep track of because of unecessary plotlines that add nothing to its supposed horror element. The whole mystery behind camp nevermoor, was working well enough JUST FINE. The settlers, the tree, lysa monroe and the cultists, and the involvement of the dunlaps with magic was a driving point.

And it got me thinking and brew more ideas.

1.) A comic, all things orgainzed into one. A comic where it gives us more insight, background or info/depth to camp nevermoor and the events that took place before the main conflict happened. This way, it could give more easy to navigate and understandable context to the main story and why it happened.

2.) A game, it has fun mechanics like a minigame and all. The game explores more on the main story, aka the recent events happening. This could also be an opportunity to see more into the lives of the slashers or camp counselors and explore their character by being given more information on each of them, be it their history or life growing up where you can play in their perspective to understand more, to feel the characters complexities and the nuances of why they are the way they are. For hearts, you dont have to pay, you earn them! Example: By playing into a sidestory of each character or do simple tasks that correlates to their preferences (Basically a whole grind system) So ; more hearts earned = increased bloodlust. As for the minigame, it could help build up your skills! (Stealth, agility, speed, strength, reaction) with each score adding to the percentage of each skill, and these skills helps you progress even more in the story.

Other games i played on dorian they were at a nicer level of decent , not too much paywall options and the story is consistent and progresses from its main point. Character writing is not very questionable but actually put into thought. Slashfic seems to be the leading game in the app but the way i see it, if the expensive paywall options and the excuse of supporting creators keeps going on coupled with not adhering to criticisms or suggestions , the game will be overshadowed by other games and it will soon loose its current spotlight because the way it is drives players further away from interest in playing because of its paywall problem. Each characters writing are just watered down blatant tropes and thats basically all that they are, its sad. I really thought slashfic would improve more on because the nevermoor story really did got my attention. Its a shame to see ive came this far along in the game to be met with a downgrade. But i still keep playing anyway and i do not know why, and honestly??? Im also starting to slowly loose interest having to wait so long and the episodes have gotten so short (lord spare me).

I already have art and redesigns in mind, these ideas aren't really much of a help to my motivation of finishing the plans i already have in motion😅

Anyway this is all!

@ xoxo-chrmy has a great concept for a slashfic rpg game! Check em out :]

[secretflourish]

⚠️ Warning: lots of words and some thoughts about S03E08 ⚠️

Like some other viewers I was extremely upset by Siuan's passing in the season finale. In addition to the brutality of act itself, this event will inevitably affect Moiraine's personality and her further development as a character. From another perspective it even seems paradoxical: why would Siuan start her defensive speech with declaring love towards Moiraine when she could at least try to reason with facts about Dragon Reborn, Forsaken, etc.? One last attempt to sway minds within White Tower's walls — wasn't it her misssion all the time? Certainly undeserved and too "simple" demise for such a powerful character. However, most of all, it undermined some inner expectation of happy ending looming on the horizon for all those who fight on the side of Light. As is often the case, protagonists go through various stages of hardship, suffering and pain in order to find semblance of peace and harmony. And this is what we are all used to and, perhaps, subconsciously expect: the harder the path, the greater the reward.

Moiraine and Siuan were on the top of this list — they sacrificed their personal happiness and dreams day after day for abstract greater good, so it was kinda logical to expect that a quiet life away from Tar Valon would be the climax of their suffering. This is not going to happen now, not at all, since any hints at Siuan's return are likely to be in the form of flashbacks or hypothetical future/past in other turns of the Wheel. Siuan's death is obvious, it cannot be disguised, given the bloody scene after and Moiraine's strong reaction. By the way, something in the shot piqued my interest: threads of One Force hovering around Moiraine when she realized the loss of her beloved — were they a consequence of her vow on Oath Rod disintegration or something more? Was it implied that these two were connected by fate itself, by eternal bonds in each of their lives?

Putting emotions aside, I think I'm particularly disappointed that producers had deliberately placed an important emphasis on relationship between Siuan and Moiraine from the very first season, and now they turn a wonderful feeling into an abyss of despair. After all, there was no obligation to create such tremendous magnitude of feelings that surpassed decades of separation, burden of expectations and even overcoming partner's betrayal. Judging by some tidbits, their relationship is not clearly confirmed in the books and each has another partner (God forbid, to get an imposed love line with Thom Merrilin now, of all things). So, why was it necessary to create something so immense and fundamental, specifically aimed at the broad support from a certain audience, only to annihilate it all at once? I may sound cynical now, but wouldn't it be better (more reasonable) for confrontation and violation of will in Cairhien to end their relationship? Of course, Moiraine would still be in pain but at least she wouldn't lose forever her only love, whom she promised to always wait for, no matter what. Now their reunion in Tel'aran'rhiod seems like a bittersweet pill, as there's nothing more cruel than false hope.

Sooner or later, you have to say goodbye to characters you like, alas, everyone cannot survive simply because a deep and thoughtful plot doesn't exist without a full range of emotions. I have to admit, there have been deaths during three seasons that upset me: Loial, Agelmar and Amalisa Jagad, even Geofram Bornhal and yes, the Hopper. But Siuan's death stands alone even though she couldn't be classified as a major character. However she was an important part of Moiraine's life, concentration of her fragility and humanity, beacon of all personal hopes. And while the latter will certainly be able to survive the loss, I don't think it's a positive message for an audience that wants to see echoes of their own lives in their favorite storylines. And we all partially identify ourselves with fictional characters, set boundaries of the "deserved" and expect a happy ending. Especially for those who suffer a lot, like some kind of compensation and justice that we wish to come true.

[joelsdagger]

Pedro does Joel well in my opinion, and that’s from someone who very much prefers game Joel. The difference is that Pedro is working with the dogshit script they gave him. And somehow managing to make his performance a lot better than what the writing has earned from him. Pedro does HBO Joel well but we’ll never know if he can do a more game accurate Joel. It’s just the failings of the show runners which is so disappointing.

Anyway love your work, nobody writes for the loml game Joel anymore

i agree with you to a certain degree. i think he did the most he could with what they gave him, but personally, he does share some of the blame. from the articles i read, he was the one who pushed for some of the changes for joel, ie: joel in therapy, it was something that was important to him and from what i’ve read he reminded the show runners it was the whole reason he agreed to play the part. and in my opinion, pedro, neil & craig intentionally made show joel this weird, very emotionally volatile type of man, and in doing so, they tried too hard to ward off this idea that joel was a toxic masculine man (that didn’t have any feelings) that many people believed joel was (canonically on the surface he was very closed off and emotionally constipated but ultimately he wasn’t emotionally volatile and all over the place, and anyone who experienced the game in some capacity knows that). and in my opinion, it just doesn’t work, because it’s just not how joel was in the original source material. on top of that, a lot of pedro’s mannerisms and some of his acting choices for certain moments were a little over the top for me and game joel was always very subtle, let his actions speak for him and i think pedro has a tendency to overcompensate in the show. we know our joel from the games, and the one he played….it’s just not the one i know and love from the games. and listen, i adore pedro, i think he’s great, i’ve seen almost all of his work and i think he’s a very talented, versatile actor, but for joel, i do think there’s room for improvement there with certain depictions of emotions and mannerisms, and that goes for the rest of the cast too. but i also agree that it’s the script and the writers that most of the blame falls on. neil and craig fucked up royally and the whole show, entire storylines, and everyone involved are suffering for it.

i think if the games didn’t exist and if it weren’t so painfully obvious that neil is very poorly retconning his own work and if he didn’t very obviously loathe joel, i think season 1 could stand on it’s own but even from season 1 to season 2….those characters are just not the same, like at all. and ultimately, i just don’t believe game adaptations are ever good. there’s so much nuance that cannot be replicated in a live action adaptation so i firmly believe this adaptation didn’t need to happen as much as we all hoped or wanted it to work.

that’s just my opinion though i’m not trying to start discourse i’m just being transparent 😅 i just want people to know that this is a space to discuss their game to show qualms especially game joel fans who are on the same page! i love tlou and i love talking about it. just don’t take this as me thinking i’m right it’s just me expressing an opinion. if you liked it, you liked it and i’m happy you liked it! i want my blog to be a space where me, and likeminded people can openly talk about our thoughts, feelings, & disappointments about the show, it isn’t possible to not have them!

and thank you so much for reading my work and for the compliment. i appreciate you very much <33

[kikyoupdates]

Otherworldly Attraction ⭑˚🔮⭑ 𝑎 𝑠𝑢𝑑𝑑𝑒𝑛 𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟

yandere!jjk x f!reader

yandere, reverse harem, isekai, jujutsu kaisen x fem!reader, slowburn, slowburn yandere

You don't know how or why, but you've been isekai'd into the world of Jujutsu Kaisen. Although your first instinct is to stay away from the plot, you've been blessed with an abnormal amount of cursed energy, and for better or worse, you find yourself sucked into the storyline. You decide that you may as well use your newfound powers for the greater good, and if you're lucky, you might succeed in rewriting some of the characters' fates. But it turns out that your presence in this world is an even bigger deal than you first thought, and soon, everyone wants to make you theirs.

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The door slides open to reveal two students, a girl and a boy, sitting around a table while they eat their lunches. Itadori steps inside, still grinning widely, and their heads turn at the sound of his voice.

“Hey, guys! I just dropped by for lunch, if that’s okay. Oh, and I brought a friend! This is [Name],” he happily introduces. 

You’re too stunned by the fact that he just referred to you as his friend to process much else, and by that point, the two students have already stood up. 

“It’s nice to meet you, [Name],” the girl greets with a smile. “I’m Sasaki, a second-year.” 

“And I’m Iguchi, also a second-year,” the boy chimes in. 

Needless to say, you already know who they are, too. Even though it was indirect on their part, they’re largely the reason why Itadori ends up at Jujutsu High, thanks to the fateful events of a certain night spent on school grounds. 

At this point in time, Itadori has yet to give them Sukuna’s finger. You’re not sure exactly when it’ll happen, but there will probably be some warning signs, like Fushiguro showing up on campus to look for it. 

Still, for obvious reasons, you feel like you shouldn’t get too involved with these two. The plot is going to proceed normally, as it should. You’re worried that something might go wrong with your interference. It’s probably best if you keep your distance, and—

“Would you like to join the Occult Research Club?!” 

“...” 

Yeah, you probably should’ve expected that. 

Itadori laughs. “Come on, guys. I didn’t bring her here to try and recruit her. I just wanted to introduce all three of you! I’m not sure if [Name]’s into that kind of stuff, anyways. It’s not really everyone’s thing.” 

“It’s true,” you nod. “I’m, uh, not that great with scary stuff…” 

“There’s nothing scary about the paranormal!” Sasaki insists. “It’s just interesting! Mysterious! Imagine what could be out there! Don’t you have a thirst for the unknown?” 

It’s precisely because I do know what’s out there that I’m scared…

“Sasaki, you’re coming on way too strong,” Iguchi chides. He turns to offer you a reassuring smile. “Don’t worry. We just can’t help but get excited when new people show up to our club room, but we know this kind of thing can’t be forced. You two are more than welcome to stay here during lunch.”

To some extent, you can’t help but feel a bit bad, because you know how passionate they are, and soon, Itadori won’t be around to keep them company anymore. He has no choice but to go to Jujutsu High. It’s his fate as the protagonist of this world. 

You know you can’t possibly be a substitute for someone as irreplaceable as Itadori, but once all the craziness with Sukuna’s finger passes, you’d be happy to be their friend, if they’ll have you.

“Ooh, your lunch looks really good, [Name],” Itadori remarks once you sit down and unpack your bento box.

“Thanks,” you smile. “I’ve been cooking for a while. My mom cooks too, but I just got used to making food for myself. The process helps me take my mind off things. It’s kind of therapeutic, in a way.” 

Seeing as being sucked into a fictional world is kind of—or rather, really fucking insane, it’s safe to say that you cooked up a storm when you got home yesterday. You packed up most of the leftovers for lunch today, so the food didn’t go to waste, but still. You ended up emptying a good portion of the fridge.

Itadori takes a big bite out of his onigiri, but he keeps eyeing your lunch all the while, so you chuckle and push the bento box closer to him.

“Go ahead,” you encourage. “You can have some if you want.” 

“Can I really?” he blinks, a few pieces of rice stuck to his cheek. It’s kind of ridiculous how adorable this guy is. You have the sudden urge to pull him into your arms and give him a big squeeze, but mercifully, your intrusive thoughts don’t win. 

“Of course. I packed plenty, so I can afford to share.”

“Oh—wait, but earlier, I was saying that I’d be the one to treat you! I can’t just eat your lunch! I still owe you big-time for what I did to you!” 

Itadori firmly shakes his head in refusal, then crosses his arms and makes an attempt at what you can only assume is meant to be a stern expression. But again, he’s so ridiculously cute that it’s a bit hard to take him seriously. 

Sasaki arches a brow. “What did you do to her?” 

“I, uh, may have hit her in the face with a soccer ball,” Itadori replies, shamefully shrinking in on himself.

He is literally baby. 

“Why would you do that?” Iguchi gapes. “Come to think of it, her nose is a little bruised…” 

“It obviously wasn’t on purpose!” Itadori protests. He turns towards you with an imploring expression. “[Name], I promise it wasn’t on purpose. I swear I would never do something like that!” 

You chuckle softly. “I know you wouldn’t. You definitely don’t seem like that kind of guy.”

Itadori lets out a sigh of relief and resumes munching on his onigiri. Meanwhile, Sasaki stares at you from across the table. 

“So… [Name],” she says. “You’re a first-year like Itadori, I’m assuming?” 

“Yep.” 

“I’ve never really seen you around.” 

“I’m a new student. I only just transferred in.” 

She pauses for a few moments, and you can see her eyes glistening with excitement. “So, that must mean you haven’t joined any clubs yet, right?” 

“Sasaki, not this again,” Iguchi sighs. 

“I’m telling you! Not everyone is drawn to the occult right away. It takes trial and error to figure out if it’s something you’re actually interested in. I’m not saying she has to join our club or anything. But while she’s here, she should at least dip her toes in, right?” 

Before Iguchi can protest on your behalf again, Sasaki grabs a large board from one of the bookshelves and turns towards you with a mischievous grin. 

“...you’ve heard of Kokkuri, right?” 

After school, Itadori stops by your classroom. 

“Hey, [Name],” he beams. “Thanks for hanging out with all of us during lunch. It was a lot of fun. Hopefully that game of Kokkuri didn’t freak you out too much.”

“I had fun too,” you nod. Truthfully, you’ve never really been fazed by this kind of stuff. Horror movies and the like don’t often get much of a reaction out of you. You never bought into ghosts or vengeful spirits. Well, not in the real world at least.

Unfortunately, in this world, there’s plenty of freaky shit to go around. 

“It means a lot to those guys,” Itadori says, a tinge of sadness to his smile. “We’re the only people in the school that seem to have an interest in the occult. I signed up for it because I thought it’d be fun, but we just barely meet the three-member minimum. Thanks for going along with it to make them happy, even if it’s not really your kind of thing.” 

“There’s no need to thank me. I know I said I wasn’t crazy about scary stuff, but I actually ended up having a good time. I’m glad you invited me to hang out with you guys,” you smile. 

Itadori returns your smile with one of his own—seriously, he’s almost always smiling, but you certainly don’t mind—and before you realize it, a phone has been placed into your hand. 

You blink. “What’s this?” 

“My phone,” Itadori replies, still smiling.

“Um, I mean, I know that, but why’d you give it to me?” 

“So you can give me your number. That way it’ll be easier for us to stay in touch!” He pauses, just for a moment, to frown. “Oh, but I guess I should’ve asked if you were okay with it first. I got a little ahead of myself. Would it be cool if we exchanged numbers?” 

Abso-fucking-lutely! 

By some miracle, you manage to reign in your excitement, and instead of hardcore fangirling and squealing out at the top of your lungs, you just nod. 

“Sure thing,” you say, trying to play it cool. Still, despite your best efforts to act indifferent, your fingers are trembling as you pull out your own phone and refer to the number you have saved in a notes app (because you definitely haven’t memorized it within less than a day of being here). Once you’re finished inputting your number, you pass your phone over to Itadori so he can do the same.

And just like that, you have a new contact saved. Itadori Yuji. He even added a little smiley-face at the end of his name. God, he’s so fucking cute. 

“Sweet!” Itadori grins. “Thanks, [Name]. I’ll be sure to text you lots! Sorry I can’t really stick around much longer. I just wanted to stop by real quick before I left to go visit my gramps at the hospital.” 

Right. His grandfather. A point deep in your stomach throbs uncomfortably, and you’re hit by a sudden wave of guilt. It feels awful to know that his grandfather’s end is rapidly approaching. It feels awful to know that you can’t change it, or even warn him. All you can do is feign ignorance and hope that he enjoys these fleeting moments while they last. 

You muster up a smile. “I hope you have a nice day with your grandpa. Feel free to text me whenever.”

“Will do! See ya!” 

Itadori waves you off, every bit as cheerful as always. Yet another thing that causes you immense guilt is the knowledge that his happy days won’t last forever. Soon, he’ll be thrown into a dark, sinister world that teems with death. A world that, in your opinion, is far too harsh for such a gentle soul. 

Unfortunately, there’s nothing you can do about that. Fate will run its course, and you must simply stand by and let it happen. 

Despite the nice day you had, your spirits are admittedly a bit low as you trudge home, having to consult Oogle Maps in order to find your way around. After being injured yesterday, the nurse called your parents to inform them of what had happened, and your mom came by to pick you up. This is technically your first time finding your way home by yourself. It’s not just a new school you need time getting used to, but a new home, a new city, a new world… all of it is bound to get a little overwhelming at times.

You wish you could say you’re completely aware of your surroundings, but that’s far from the truth. Every so often, you have to stop and squint towards the street signs to make sure you’re heading the right way. Jujutsu Kaisen is set in a fictional world, of course, but it’s a world modeled off the real world, and there’s plenty of similarities. This version of Japan is every bit as busy as the real one, for instance. Which is why you keep getting swept up in the crowds and losing your sense of direction.

Still, it’s not rocket science. You can mostly figure out where you’re going. Oogle Maps is idiot-proof, after all. Well, sort of. 

But the fact remains that you’ve never wandered these streets before, and naturally, you’re as disoriented as anyone would be in a foreign place. Hence why you don’t notice him until it’s late. 

A man with long, black hair, who’s staring right at you. 

You get jerked around by the crowd of people hurrying home during rush-hour, enough that you end up tripping onto the sidewalk and falling onto your knees. Your socks only reach up to your calves, so unfortunately, your knees get scraped open and start bleeding. 

Man. Only two days into this isekai thing, and you just can’t seem to stop getting hurt. 

“...are you alright?” 

Some guy is speaking to you. Presumably, one of the bystanders that saw you trip. Your cheeks flush, because falling in public is one of the most embarrassing things that can happen, but you instinctively reach out to grab his hand anyway. 

At the same time, your gaze pans upwards, and his eyes meet yours. 

Oh, balls. 

That’s the most appropriate response you can think of. After all, the man you’ve just had the misfortune of running into is hardly the type to be your friend. He’s not like Itadori. He’s not one of the good guys. 

He is Geto Suguru. Or rather, the curse user that’s pretending to be him. The real Geto is long dead. He was killed by his former best friend, Gojo. 

Those scars on his forehead tell you everything you need to know. The curse user’s name is Kenjaku, and he is merely using Geto’s body as a vessel. As things stand, you’re probably the only person who knows his true identity.

Regardless, the details don’t matter right now.

You’re just really fucking scared. 

Kenjaku pulls you to your feet, and unlike with Itadori, when you wished you could keep holding his hand forever, this time, you pull away viscerally fast, as if you’ve just been splashed with hot oil. 

Naturally, Kenjaku notices. 

“You didn’t answer my question, miss,” he chuckles, a cunning smile spreading across his lips. “I asked if you were alright. You took quite a tumble there. It must have hurt.” 

“I-I’m fine,” you reply, praying your fear isn’t absurdly obvious. You need to stay calm. There’s no reason why an ordinary person would be afraid of him, and if you let it show, he’ll know something’s up. 

“Your knees are bleeding,” Kenjaku points out. He leans closer to you, and you swear your heart nearly explodes. His dark, thin eyes are even more eerie from up close. “And you look like you just saw a ghost. I admit, I’m a bit worried.”

That’s bullshit if you’ve ever heard it, but nevertheless, you can’t allow your expression to crumble. There’s no reason for him to kill you out in public like this. Unlike cursed spirits, people can see him. He won’t risk drawing that kind of attention to himself. 

Probably. 

“I’m just… socially awkward,” you say, chuckling shyly for added effect. “And, uh, I’m not good at talking to handsome guys like you. I get nervous.” 

To be honest, what you just said isn’t even a total lie. Sadly. 

Kenjaku stares at you in silence for a few moments, then smiles yet again, his eyes crinkling at the corners. 

“I’m flattered by your words,” he muses. “Well, just be careful not to trip again. You got off with a small injury this time, but if you’re not careful, it could be a lot worse. And nobody likes to hurt, do they?” 

It’s hard to tell whether or not that was meant to be a thinly-veiled threat, but you have no intention of sticking around to find out. 

“Thank you for your help, mister. I appreciate it.” 

You hastily bow to him, then waste no time before speed-walking away. The further you get, the easier it is to breathe.

But since you’re too scared to look back over your shoulder, you don’t realize that Kenjaku is still staring at you with a contemplative look on his face. 

He hums to himself. “So much cursed energy. Is she a sorcerer? But something about her seems strange. I just can’t put my finger on it.” 

Well, no matter. He’ll leave you in peace for now. He can’t very well attack you in broad daylight, and he doesn’t even know if you pose a threat. There are far too many variables to consider. 

Besides, something tells him that this won’t be your last meeting. 

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[tryandbehappy]

you're giving me so much hope that the writers are not going to ruin everything for us 🥹 thank you!

I’m happy to give people hope. Honestly, to me, it’s all really obvious.

Like if the writers love Nick this much, why would they ruin him now? And we can see they’re not ruining him, he’s still just as good as ever. So I believe it’s all going to be okay.

Because everything the show gives us, everything they show in their storyline, it’s all about how deeply they love each other

but they just can’t be together because of a million different reasons, both external and internal.

This is literally classic endgame. There have to be obstacles. And not just external ones, like Gilead.

There are internal ones too: guilt, fear, Nick not feeling like he’s enough to make that first move, and June not giving him clear signals.

All of that.

[mtkay13]

The peach blossoms are blooming

Lol @the fancy title, haha. Yesterday I promised "two hoboxu's today!" but I'm an inconsistant liar so the second is today and not yesterday, HAH.

Anyway, another painting of my very beloved; more about this piece below!

So aside of the obvious joke, what I really wanted to work on and represent on this picture is, as the title makes it clearer, grief, and what it looks like for ZZS.

The idea came from imagining ZZS setting off, happy with his disguise, and passing by a peach tree orchards and seeing all the peach blossoms blooming, and what it would entail.

...So let's talk about what TYK is about again, shall we?

(usual caveat: those are my thoughts and interpretations etc etc)

Little is known of the four years that separate the end of QY and the beginning of TYK. Even less is obviously stated when it comes to the reasons why ZZS has put in the nails, besides the obvious "requirement to leave Tian Chuang" part.

So, trying to leave all headcanons and other suppositions aside, and looking at what the text gives us, one of the main "storylines" of ZZS' personal journey across both books seems to be: dealing with the loss of LJX, first of their relationship, and later, of LJX entirely.

>I'm going to boldly announce that (I think) TYK is in great parts a story about getting over grief, or rather, properly living with grief.

Needless to say that it is clear that ZZS has a bunch of issues he's dealing with, including "the void after meeting your goals; what's next?" and some form of burnout from completely over-exerting himself and going way beyond what he thought he could sustain mentally; but also. Four years after he lost LJX, ZZS is still deeply grieving. Still seeing him in crowds, still thinking about him frequently, still hallucinating him, dreaming of him. He couldn't resist taking in ZCL because ZCL reminded him of LJX. Nearly every single thought of his own past ends up rooting back to LJX.

The first time he mentions LJX's name out loud in TYK, chapter 41, is the first time he mentions it at all in four years, and to quote the text:

Speaking out his name hadn't been that big of a deal, in the end; it had only felt like something had been pulled out of his chest—like he was now missing a piece, like it left behind an empty void.

(TYK ch41, TL by me)

The next scene is when it hits ZZS that he's going to die; from that moment on, ZZS starts feeling stupid, ZZS slowly starts wanting to find a solution, influenced by WKX... and the story culminates with ZZS making the opposite decision that he made in QY: instead of risking never seeing WKX alive again, and against WKX's decision, he goes to meet him, unlike LJX whom he was too scared to go meet, and lost forever without even saying goodbye.

>I think that ZZS essentially took the nails because he couldn't manage to live with that grief, basically. (I know, I KNOW there are other reasons, but for the sake of analyzing this theme, I find interesting to look at it from this angle; how the narrative shifts towards ZZS putting in the efforts to stay alive at the exact same times he starts letting go of LJX literally.) And then, as he learns, as he rediscovers life differently, the story becomes about getting free from the nails, about actially living with that grief rather than dying because of it.

*coughs* so, hum, yes. This is what I wanted to represent. What grief looks like, at this stage of melancholic, happy, self-deprecating acceptance of freedom through death—freedom of the burden of grief and guilt. It's a bittersweet feeling, but the way I see it, he smiles out of what he thinks is inner peace, resignation, and once again, self-deprecation.

I would go even deeper, in that ZZS' relationship to death with regards to LJX is quite complex and difficult, given how he was told by LJX himself that he ought to die for what he's done (or misunderstood LJX saying so), but that's a whole other can of worms and I don't have the brain juice to go there again (since it wouldn't even be the first time iirc). SO YEAH, again, grief, but ZZS style: turned into a bit of a melancholic, silly, but gentle joke, and with a smile on the face. On brand with TYK as well.

Cheers!